I have that feeling again. That rock bottom desolate numb feeling that seeps into my mind and my soul making me ambivalent to the world. Ambivalent to my child and my husband and my friends. The kind of feeling that makes me want to lie on the floor in a darkened cell and waste away into the nothingness I feel inside. I have two awsome 12 weeks of Christmas items to share with you but I just can’t right now. I can’t force myself to feel all festive and cheerful.